What do you do when God seems so far away? When you feel like you’ve prayed all you can pray. What do you do when you feel like God hears your prayers, but they just aren’t enough. So you pray more, and you find yourself sitting, alone, wondering where God even is.
I think it’s hard for us Christians to admit that we’ve hit a low point. To admit that we’re having doubts about who God is, and if He’s even real.
We don’t like to admit it though. Because we’re suppose to have it all together. We’re suppose to be okay. To have a trust in Him that is unshakable. To believe without a shadow of a doubt that He is who He is.
We’re suppose to have it all together.
But what if we don’t?
What if we are struggling with our faith. What if we don’t even have faith anymore. What do we do then?
I’ve been there. Honestly, I’m there now. I’ve tried for so long to act like I have this huge faith in God, and that my relationship is perfect, but the truth is I’m struggling too.
I also don’t know what to do. I don’t know how to gain more faith in Him. When the pain has gotten so bad, and I feel like my prayers are not enough, I don’t know where else to turn. Usually I would turn to God, but when I feel like He’s no where to be found, I’m at a loss.
I accidentally stumbled upon a chapter in the book of Job, and it was exactly what I needed. I was looking for another verse, but misread the book and somehow ended up in the book of Job.
Job chapter 2 talks about how Satan kept attacking Job, and God wasn’t stepping in. Satan was trying to get Job to curse God. God told Satan that he could try all he wanted, but Job had faith.
I want to have that kind of faith. Such a strong faith in God that no matter what Satan throws at me, I won’t turn against God. Because I’ll admit it, I have been so angry at God lately. But I want a faith like Job.
I do know God hears our prayers. But I also know that we are not going to always understand what’s going on in our lives and why God doesn’t intervene the way we think He should.
Maybe it’s because He has a different plan for our lives than what we think He has planned.
Maybe this is a part of some greater plan to grow our faith.
I’m not sure, but I do know that it’s okay to struggle. It’s okay to lack in faith sometimes. We’re human, and I know God understands that. He doesn’t expect us to be perfect.
So if you’re struggling with something today, know that. Know that it’s okay to lose faith some days, but don’t get to the point where you turn away from Him. It’s hard to understand what is going on and why it’s happening, but all you need faith as small as a mustard seed.
Just a little faith is all you need.