There’s been something on my heart that I’ve been praying and praying about for months now. Typically I am a very impatient person. But I’ve learned this past year that being impatient isn’t going to help me any. I’ve seen what me wanting something now does, instead of me waiting on God’s time.
I was praying a few days ago, and as I was praying about this specific thing I caught myself almost saying, but.
Basically the prayer went like so, “God I understand your ways, and if this isn’t what you want for me and my life then I accept that and trust you, but…”
I stopped myself mid sentence and was taken back by the fact that I was trusting God but I had a condition added to it. I couldn’t just leave it at the fact that I trusted Him. I then had to add in another statement like I trust Him however I would prefer something else. It just really surprised me that every single time I pray I always ask for His will for my life, then I add in a little, “but I would really love it if you could do this and that”
Almost all my prayers have been like that. I trust God so much yet I want to put my desires into the equation, instead of just leaving it in God’s hands.
I’m working so hard on just allowing God to work in my life, and leaving it in His hands instead of praying for specific things that will eventually work out on their own when God constructs these things.
It can be scary though. Giving our hopes and dreams, and even little things like relationships and life events, over to God can seem a little scary. I mean, we know in our hearts what we desire. We know what we want, and we want it on our own timing. Giving these things over to God, who I obviously believe in, but if we’re being honest, God’s invisible to our earthly eyes, so it can sometimes feel like we’re talking to ourselves. I feel like that sometimes, but just know that God listens.
Hebrews 11:6 “And without faith it is impossible to please him, for whoever would draw near to God must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who seek him.”
It might seem like God isn’t there. It might seem like our prayers are really just us talking to ourselves. It might even seem odd to non-believers that we talk to someone we cannot even see, and put so much trust in Him. But know that God is there. He hears our prayers.
Also know that we must put our full trust in Him. We can’t tell God that we trust Him in a certain situation, and then turn around and give him our wants for that situation.
Now don’t get me wrong. It is okay to give Him our desires. But once we let our desires be known to God, we need to then step back and trust Him to do what He knows is right for our lives.
Psalm 37:4-6 “Delight yourself in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the Lord; trust in him, and he will act. He will bring forth your righteousness as the light, and your justice as the noonday.”
I am trying my hardest to do this myself. I’ve stepped back and looked at how I pray and how I talk to God. I’m making changes in my own relationship with God and how I walk in my own faith. It’s not an easy change from constantly giving God my two cents every time He does something in my life that I don’t agree with. Giving God full control in my life, and having complete trust in Him means stepping back and allowing God to work in our lives the way He wants to.