It’s so easy to be mad at God, or at least it is for me. I find myself getting so frustrated, and I want to scream at Him. I have thousands of questions running through my mind, and I feel like sometimes He doesn’t have an answer, or if He does, He doesn’t want to give it to me.
I have found myself praying a lot more lately. Praying for specific things, and asking for His opinion. I get so happy when a prayer gets answered, but how am I suppose to feel when the answered prayer gets taken away? I receive something I prayed for, but then God takes it away. How am I suppose to feel?
I want to be mad at Him, but at the same time, I try to understand. I try to understand that God works in ways that we can’t comprehend. He has a plan, but that doesn’t mean we understand it.
Lately I’ve been trying to work on my relationship with Him, and with that, comes understanding. Even though I don’t understand every thing He does, I try to. I truly believe everything happens for a reason, but sometimes I try way too hard to find the reason, instead of just accepting what God has planned, and trusting Him.
I want so badly for God to answer a prayer, and let it be. I feel like He answers a good majority of my prayers, but then He takes them back. And I don’t know why.
I get mad and frustrated, because I don’t see a point. I don’t see why He answers my prayers but then takes it away. But like I said, I believe everything happens for a reason, so I go searching for it. I want to be able to have peace with the things God does in life. I want to accept them, and trust in Him, but it’s hard. It’s hard to always trust God. I’m always scared that my next answered prayer won’t be fully answered. I’m scared He will take it away.
I don’t want to be scared of what comes after God answering a prayer. I want to be able to have full peace. I want to have comfort in knowing that God knows the plan, and He has a reason for every single thing He throws my way. He knows the good and He knows the bad. He knows what I need, and what I don’t. He knows what He’s doing, even when I can’t comprehend it.
Finding peace isn’t just about being peaceful. It means that your doubt subsides. Your worries are no more. Your thousands of questions aren’t being asked. It’s about acceptance and trust.
I’ve been listening to calming Christian music lately. The lyrics speak to my heart, and provide a peaceful atmosphere for me. I’ve also been reading a daily devotional in the mornings, and just the five minutes it takes to read it, provides peace for the rest of my day. I’ve always prayed throughout the day, but now I find a spot in my house, and sit and pray. I don’t allow any distractions, it’s just me and God. I find doing these things help provide a little more peace to my day.
But it’s still a hard thing to do. I don’t know if I’ll ever have complete peace about some situations, but I’m trying really hard to. I believe it will come with time. The more I work on my relationship with God, the more peace I am given. So if you are struggling daily with frustration and aren’t content in your walk with Christ, try looking deeper at your relationship with Him. Find things that help, and make them a part of your daily routine. They might be similar to what I do, but they might not. It’s all about finding what helps specifically for your relationship.