Tell It Tuesday w/B. Parker!|How God Kept Me From Dropping Out of College

I woke up today, excited for the next few months. Why? I was going to be registering for my next semester of college.

I took last semester off, but felt ready to go back. I know what I want for my future, so I was ready to tackle my sophomore year of college.

I went to register, and they told me I couldn’t. What?! I felt outraged. I have had so many problems with this new university I decided to transfer to, I just wanted to scream.

But then I asked God, “Why?”

I’m sure my university can fix this issue. But the fact that I have something blocking my path, yet again, just upsets me. I won’t go into detail about my college experience thus far, but it hasn’t been easy. I felt like I have made so many mistakes. I was about to head up to my school, but decided to read today’s reading in ‘Jesus Calling’ first.

Let me tell you, GOD HAS A PLAN.

If you have the book ‘Jesus Calling’ by Sarah Young, read today’s reading, and you’ll understand.
Here’s an excerpt from the text:

“You can achieve the victorious life through living in deep dependence on Me. People usually associate victory with success: not falling or stumbling, not making mistakes. But those who are successful in their own strength tend to go their own way, forgetting about Me. It is through problems and failure, weakness and neediness that you learn to rely on Me. True dependence is not simply asking Me to bless what you have decided to do. It is coming to Me with an open mind and heart, inviting Me to plant My desires within you. I may infuse within you a dream that seems far beyond your reach. You know that in yourself you cannot achieve such a goal. Thus begins your journey of profound reliance on Me. It is a faith-walk, taken one step at a time, leaning on Me as much as you need. This is not a path of continual success but of multiple failures. However, each failure is followed by a growth spurt, nourished by increased reliance on Me. Enjoy the blessedness of a victorious life, through deepening your dependence on Me.”

– Jesus Calling; Sarah Young.

I read this, and immediately felt peace, but also confusion.

I do believe with every part of my heart that God has a plan, but I just wish I knew that plan.

I then read this bible verse today, Psalm 34:17-18.

English Standard Version (ESV)
17 When the righteous cry for help, the Lord hears
and delivers them out of all their troubles.
18 The Lord is near to the brokenhearted
and saves the crushed in spirit.

I knew I was meant to read this, during this exact moment, because this verse is one of my favorites. God wanted me to be reminded of this verse

Then the next verse I read,

2 Corinthians 5:7
New King James Version (NKJV)

7 For we walk by faith, not by sight.

Something from that verse stood out to me. It’s what we trust in but don’t yet see that keeps us going. It’s so true! We trust God, but yet we don’t physically see Him, but with Him, we are able to keep going in life. Do you suppose a few ruts in the road or rocks in the path are going to stop us?

Before I read this, I was so upset and tired of things stopping me from my plans regarding college. But after I read this, I knew God has had a plan from the beginning. I will not let this one rut in my road keep me from going.

I’ve tried so hard to not make my weekly posts too personal, because I want it to relate to a lot of you, and I sometimes feel like too much personal detail takes away from what God might want me to write for you. But today, I just knew I had to write this, and I pray this post let’s you know that God is here. He isn’t far away, or invisible. You can see Him in every scripture, and in every moment. It just might take a while to truly see Him, like it did with me. But now I know God has a plan that might be greater than my understanding but I won’t stop. I’ll follow His lead, and I pray you do too.

Yours Truly,
Brittany Parker