By Brittany Parker
There’s many days when I wonder how I’m going to get through another day. Those days are hard because you find yourself questioning everything, including your strength, and faith.
A few days ago I had the worst anxiety attack that I’ve ever experienced. It came out of no where, and I found myself feeling so weak. It caught me off guard, and I was scared. All I could do was pray.
In the midst of an attack I prayed.
That statement above shows just how us Christians can still deal with anxiety. Some say anxiety is the result of no faith in God- yet in the midst of my anxiety, I was praying.
I don’t understand anxiety. I don’t understand why God gave these struggles to me. There are days when I find the depression slowly coming back. Most the time the anxiety and depression goes hand in hand.
That doesn’t mean that my relationship with God is necessarily lacking. I actually think the struggles have done the opposite. I believe my relationship with God is stronger now.
I have had many days where I felt so alone. I felt like I had no one to talk to, and I didn’t really want to feel like a burden to anyone so I kept everything a secret.
The anxiety attacks. The not eating. The depression. Everything.
I felt so alone, and I only had God to turn to. He was the one that stayed by my side the nights I cried myself to sleep. He was the one that held my hand and told me that everything was going to be alright, even when I couldn’t see a tomorrow. He was the one that made me feel a little less alone in this world that was overwhelming me.
He was the one I needed, and He was the one I leaned on.
So for me, my anxiety and depression have done what the world says it can’t do. It’s strengthened my relationship with Christ.
I pray every single day to have a good day. To have one day with no anxiety, and to not feel depressed. And some days I have an okay day. Some days I don’t. It’s back and forth, but I am making it.
A verse that I have practically made my life verse is Psalm 116:6, “The LORD protects the unwary; when I was brought low, he saved me.”
At all my low moments, God stepped in. And if you’re going through a low moment yourself, remember that. Prayer can always help. It might not instantly solve all the issues, and your prayers might not get answered 100% of the time, but God hears them. He knows what He’s doing, and He’s placing things in your life for a reason.
I mean, if I didn’t deal with these things, I wouldn’t be writing this. I wouldn’t have been given all the opportunities I have been given. I’m choosing to see positivity in all the struggles.
God has a plan, and I choose to live that plan, even if it’s hard.
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